I Don’t Want to Live on This Planet Anymore

This year has proven to be a dismally disenchanting one so far.  For a year starting with so much potential, this past month has been overwhelming with bad news making it seem like the world keeps taking a turn for the worse.

We’ve had the debacle in Wisconsin with the GOP assault on public labor, which was fully willing to take cuts and cooperate with the governor to help balance the budget.  Hiding under a guise of fiscal responsibility, the GOP is showing its colors once more, though this really should not come as much of a surprise to any of us.  They simply are looking out for those who got them elected, which sad to say, sure as hell isn’t the people.  And similar legislation is passing in several other states where the Tea Party fever managed to capture the GOP a majority.  But why should we be shocked?  The so called “government for the people, by the people” hasn’t given a shit about us for a long time, only who can attain and control the helm of the American Empire.  The Democrats tried to play nice (well some of them did, the rest are just as bad as the GOP) and in turn lost control.  Again.  It’s no wonder so many voters are becoming disillusioned with the system; the only people that win are the ones running the show.  We certainly don’t.  I keep watching jobs disappear, schools, clinics, fire departments, pretty much everything have to run on ever shrinking budgets, all while my taxes and tuition keep going up, my rights keep getting restricted or denied entirely (looking at you Maryland and the cowardice of your legislature).  And yet the ruling class keeps getting favors and breaks, swimming in record profits for the year.  For the greatest nation on Earth, we could certainly be doing better.  I only continue to vote because it gives me more say than not voting, little as that say may be.  And I keep hoping that things will improve.

And of course, I look at what’s going on in the Middle East and North Africa, it kicks in some perspective to how much harder some people live.  It is incredibly encouraging to see so many people fighting for what they think is right, to demand more say in how they are governed.  If our generation here in America had even a fifth of the ambition and organization of  these protesters, we could change things for the better.  We’ve seen several peaceful topplings of the old regime now, and even the birth of a new nation from Sudan.  And yet, these protests also remind me of how little our people actually care about the advancement of democratic life, of free speech and the press, as we sit here and do nothing as Libya begins to lay the grounds for a genocidal blood bath.  Our leaders sit here and twiddle their thumbs while we have a angry leader determined to hold power at all costs waging war on his own people.  And I am so deeply saddened by how quickly our attention to this all has been lost with the devastating disaster in Japan.

Now, don’t you dare say the I am unsympathetic to the plight of Japan.  It is absolutely horrendous there right now, and they are struggling.  And need all the help they can get.  And I don’t seek to pull away from any effort to do so.  But it deeply saddens me that we cannot focus on the plight of more than one nation or people at a time.  The Middle East is essentially being entirely ignored now in our media for the terrible conditions in Japan.  All of these people need support.  They all need to be heard.  They should not be forced to fade into the background because our attention is so fickle.   Which is why everyone should begin to try and pay more mind to what happens in this world around them.  Because we never know whose voice and pleas we cannot hear and cannot help because we did not listen.

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Gaga for the Lady

So last night was an absolutely fabulous end to a spectacular break from school.  The Scissor Sisters and Lady Gaga are currently on tour together for the Lady’s Monster Ball, and were kind enough to grace my state with a show somewhere outside of the City for once.  And honestly is was nothing short of sheer glam, fame and kickass.   Despite having somewhat shit seating (though not really since we were able to see everything backstage, which was fascinating to watch the setup between songs) we enjoyed ourselves.

The Scissors Sisters were a bit limited in the showmanship of their performance likely due to being the opening group, but still were stunning.  We got Night Work, Any Which Way, Take Your Mama Out, I Don’t Feel Like Dancing, Runnin’ Out and Filthy Gorgeous, with my favorite being Take Your Mama Out, simply because they dedicated it to all the moms that were there with their kids to see the show (And dads playing mom for the evening and den mothers) and it’s an awesome song to begin with.  Plus there was Del and Jake to ogle the entire time, with Jake slowly losing clothing as the show went on (though we were somewhat saddened by him waiting to remove his pants until the very end of their gig).  All in all, they were the best choice to have to open for Lady Gaga, being such a camp, sexy and fun band who loves what they do and loves the crowd.  I hope for the day when I get to see them as the stars of the tour.

Of course after the great time with the Scissor Sisters, Lady Gaga fucking blew the stadium out of the water (as was expected).  She did an insane number of songs, including a brand new unreleased piano piece.  Which was one of my favorite parts of her show, because it was a great piano piece, but also had a flaming piano, which consisted of a literal vortex of fire coming out of it.  It was absolutely phenomenal.   Her performance of Show Me Your Teeth was probably the next highlight of the show, since the sheer emotion she put into it was overwhelming.  Though that could be said to describe her entire show.  That was what made it so awesome.  She put herself, her heart, hell, her very soul into the performance and you could see it and hear it in everything.  She took many points to stop and simply speak with the fans, to encourage them to get involved in fighting for marriage equality, to fight bullying in our society, and to be accepting of all people.  I really cannot do her justice with words.  She involved the audience so much, talking to all sorts of people and reaching out to them.  The power with which she spoke and sang inspired what could be considered a religious fervor in the crowd.  Which speaking of the crowd, was something cool in and of itself.  There were fans from all walks of life at the show, from old ladies to kids barely in their teens, black, white, blue,  gay, straight and those who have yet to decide.  It was simply awesome to see such a variety of people at a show and all of them enjoying themselves (except for the guy next to me and Addy).  I honestly hope I get another chance to see her again  at some point, as the show was worth every penny.

 

 

Also, I hope there are those of you who appreciate the permalink number of this entry.

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Good Morning Starshine!

This is just sort me rambling, but it’s something that’s been on my mind lately.  Plus it’s 4am and I have nothing better to do.

We’ve all heard the arguments about where we come from, where the universe comes from, yadda yadda yadda.  But you know, the one thing that I feel like is always overlooked or ignored by either side is just how we got here if you have a basic understanding of the stars.   The stars are an absolutely marvelous thing.  They inspire people, dance for us through the night sky, telling untold tales about our universe.   They are absolutely beautiful when you are given a sky in which they can truly shine.  Seriously, go out and just stargaze some evening.  Fuck, if you can, do so now.  I’ll wait.

Once you’ve taken the time to observe their beauty, you’ll understand what makes them even more amazing.  The stars are why we’re here.  They created us.  They are what formed everything around us.  Every atom we find was created in the furnace of a beautiful star somewhere.  Or if not in the furnace of the star, in the glorious flash of destruction and brilliant light  known as a supernova.  The stardust from these blasts scatters throughout the universe, and the force of gravity from other stars forms them into new planets and even new stars.  Our sun came from stardust like this.  Earth came from stardust.  And every person ultimately came from stardust.

YOU ARE MADE OF STARDUST.

And that is fucking amazing.

So fuck God, and anything else.  I’ll worship the stars and bask in their creative light any day, knowing that every last bit of me came from the real heavens.

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Bubble Boy

When I was a little kid, one of my favorite shows was the Magic School Bus.  I used to watch it constantly, and probably saw each episode several dozen times over.  I loved the wonderment it instilled in me about science.  A wonderment that has stuck with me today.  There was also something else I have always remembered from the show.  It was the tag line of Ms. Frizzle, the crazy science teacher everyone wished to have as their own.  She always said, “Take chances!  Make mistakes! Get Messy!” which to a little kid sounds cool, powerful, and inspiring.  It makes you want to run out and explore, collect bugs, run crazy science experiments…that somehow always turned into baking soda and vinegar volcanoes.

But time passed on and I grew older and moved onto other things like all kids do.  I changed schools, met new people and friends, learned surprisingly a fair bit in middle school and high school.  And I’m continuing to learn more here in college.  But one thing I’ve realized, and what brings Ms. Frizzle to mind is that I take no chances.  I’m terrified to make mistakes.  And I’m disgusted at the thought of getting messy.  I live in a self-created personal bubble, avoiding all the risk in life, any mistakes I may possibly make.  I refuse to take any risks.  And while I’ve learned so much in my short time here on this planet,  I’ve experienced so little, mostly because of my own doing.  And the more and more I think about it, the more and more I realize how absolutely boring my life has become.  I waste most of my time on the internet because it’s safe and controllable.  My “hobbies” basically consist of StumbleUpon and reading webcomics.  I have no drive or ambition for anything anymore.  It’s utterly pathetic.  I feel like I’m wasting so much of my life.

But as much as I want to change, it absolutely terrifies me to do so.  To leave this safe little bubble I have established for myself in the world feels like such an insurmountable challenge sometimes.  So many times I have told myself “today is the day I change and start making things better” only to turn around sometimes hours later back into the safe old routine.  And it just frustrates me further.  And I realize this is something that I have to deal with; that no one will do it for me, so I don’t expect people to tell me how to fix this.  I don’t want people to tell me how to fix this.  Nor am I seeking pity or sympathy from anyone.  No, I am writing this down so that I have something to look back at and remind myself of why I need to change how I live.  That I need to stop hiding in my bubble and start living more.  I need to go out and experience things and grow as a person and not just wither away in mediocrity.

And I say this to anyone who’s bothered to read this:  Don’t be like me.  And certainly don’t let yourself become like me.  Find a passion and run with it, learn about and experience this world to the fullest you can, and make sure you take chances, make mistakes and get messy.

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Don’t Mind Me, Just Breakin’ Your Childhood

This is probably a terrible choice for my first actual post, but I thought this was too hilarious not to share.  A friend of mine (Whyevernotso.  You should check him out on Youtube btw) found a rather disturbing Pokémon fan tribute, and made a brief synopsis/rant about it.  Here’s his review, which if you can’t guess, is very NSFW:

This work just further goes to show what a fucked up little place the internet can be…and how disturbingly funny it sometimes is.  It amazes me how people can come up with stuff like this, and then go to the effort to share it with the world.  I give Why a lot of credit for being able to go through and actually “review” such a piece.  And according to him, the artist isn’t all that bad…which is sad when you realize that they’d spend their time on this sort of work.  Though the best way to deal with works like this is to laugh at them since the only other option to laughing is to rock quietly in the corner sobbing.

Now try not to think too hard about it and take my advice:  Don’t let curiosity get the best of you here.  You will regret it.

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What is Aurality?

To be perfectly honest, I don’t even have an answer to that.  I can say what it was though.  It was an attempt by us at Orbital to establish an identity and direction for our little community.  It ultimately failed and split us apart for a while.  But after some glorious hugging, forgiving and maybe raunchy make-up sex, that’s all water under the bridge and Orbital is as it was for the most part once more, perhaps better off even.  But now this domain has sat empty for almost 2 years.  So I have decided to finally make use of it outside of a redirect page to either Orbital or Hadaway.

Aurality is going to hopefully become my personal blog, though I’m not sure what it will be used it for even to that extent.  I may treat this as a place to post musing or rants or deardairy; posts.  Possibly to share interesting articles I’ve come across via StumbleUpon and what not.  Maybe some game and movie reviews, though they’ll often be relatively old in relation to the media’s release date as I’m slow on the uptake.  I’ll likely also use this to dick around with CSS and themes when I feel like it.  All I know is I’m hoping this won’t suffer the same fate as many other projects and fall to the wayside to rot into digital obscurity.

Wish me luck.

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